Benjamin

April 23rd, 2010

I'm so sorry I've been MIA for a few days, but things have been beautifully hectic over here! Let me do a recap.

I felt like a bigot when I first laid eyes on my son. “He’s so dark,” I thought, and felt ashamed for thinking it. My gut reaction was fueled by gut fear. I was pretty sure I had taken on more than I could handle. Adoption of a white kid would have been enough of a stretch, but we had to go for a baby that came not only out of someone else’s body, but out of someone else’s culture. What kind of pseudo-Peace Corps types were we pretending to be? All I could think was that we were too white to be the parents of someone this black.

All that changed within a matter of seconds. As soon as that little baby was passed into my arms, I knew he was exactly where he should be. His color didn't matter. He could be green for all I cared. He was finally where he belonged. We were finally where we belonged.

The last few days have been absolute chaos. People coming in, schedules changing, babies crying. It's been nuts. But I've loved every second of it.

Speaking of, I hear someone waking up from a nap....be back soon!