Doubts

April 12th, 2010

I can't do it. I'm inches away from picking up the phone and calling the whole thing off. Who do I think I am? This child is going to face so many difficulties in life. Difficulties that will render me useless. What do I know about African culture? What do I say to him when he comes home one day crying because some little snot ball called me a n*gger? How will I respond when he asks me why he doesn't look like his mommy or daddy or sister or brother?

I just can't.
I can't.
Can't.